Wow TaitenAndProud I felt terrific reading it too.
In your honor I have put [www.sabinanore.com
] as my cover photo today and have quoted "Winning gives birth to hostility. Losing, one lies down in pain. The calmed lie down with ease, having set winning and losing aside." Gautam Budh as my status update on facebook.
I can now enjoy all things related to Buddhism without feeling guilty.
Meh, it's truly 'wonderful to go back to the lovely simplicity of true Buddhism',. Thank you for immense support. Please see the link I have a similar expression on my face the whole time now. Oh God I am liberated.
You know also I had to bring a point up. People in any organization definitely behave in a particular manner according to a certain chain of thought but deep down each of us retain certain traits we are born with.
Education, culture, family etc influences an individual but to a very limited levels and mostly its more of convenience i.e of the exposure we will chose to retain things convenient to us and our personality.
So it not SGI or other cults in which people behave strangely. People are strange themselves and uses such groups to exercise their mindlessness.But in a cult we chose to ignore odd behaviors thinking that we are the very epitome of kindness and forgiveness.
Every where in this world there are good, bad and ugly.
I wonder if you have read a book by Viktor Frankl called Man's Search for Meaning. Its my bible in life (i.e before I got sucked in SGI). And the one phrase that I engraved on my heart is that, “Those who have a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'.”
Of course SGI manipulated my ambitions and said that the 'why' is definetely my mission as Kosen rufu and 'how' we all know very well.....through assiduous practice of ND Buddhism.