I used to attend everything that was kind of novel and interesting with an open mind, lectures about philosophy and stuff.
Nowadays, I am suspicious and don't like any training or lecture ...
I guess, the Landmark experience inflicted some emotional pain, such that I avoid lectures or anyone telling me what
is good or bad.
I can so relate with all of you guys, and Landmark didn't even get a full fledged hook into me in the same way as if I had been swept into the dark shadows of a forum.
I used to love attending all of my lectures, I loved listening to my trusted professors and instructors, and I especially loved learning what they had to teach. I never missed a lecture, and never did I not give all of my attention in a lecture. After experiencing the intellectual and emotional loss of a friend I loved dearly to Landmark Education, and being totally unsuccessful at attempts to rescue my friend, I am now totally suspicious and wary of all of my instructors and professors, afterall they too might be lying & conniving bastards like landmark forum leaders are. I can't listen too intently to any one professor, its too possible that they might be trying to 'teach' with the same sleazy covert tactics Landmark uses.
Today, I miss lectures, and I feel compelled to go and research everything they've said after a lecture is finished, and I've come to learn that at least two of my trusted teachers are also esties and Lekkies, I suspect a third but am being extremely cautious not to let this one know what I really think, like I did the last two. One thing I've learned the hard way about devoted lekkies, they never ever
put down the torch, and even if their involvement was 30 years ago, they still bleed worship and devotion to the doctrines of landmark. They shock and scare me at the same time.
My love of learning, my trust, my curiousity has all been quelled and tarnished and in some subjects, totally destroyed---just by the presence of Landmark Education in my life indirectly.
I cannot imagine the annhiliation one experiences and has to recover from in a direct involvement. I feel really pissed off that I no longer trust any of my instructors and I no longer have the same naive love for learning that I did just two years ago.
Landmark has destroyed that joy for me through its sneaky and deceptive ways of 'educating' those who trust blindly. I hate Landmark for how it has fucked me up without my ever giving those bastards permission to enter the inner chambers of my mind or heart. I feel much anger at how violated I feel by Landmark, I can't imagine how it is for a person who has lost a loved one literally in death because of Landmark's 'therapy' sessions.
I give anyone my respect for recovering from a firsthand experience with Landmark butchers of education, it takes more guts and stamina than may be realized. I just can't stress enough how extremely toxic and deadly Landmark Education programming is.
I would liken Landmark courses to a psychological radiation at fatally high levels.