Yet Another Sad Story - Is there ANYTHING that can be done?
Date: June 17, 2004 08:37AM
I have been reading this board for quite sometime and have decided to chime in to see if there's any advice that anyone can offer…
My story is not unlike others I have read here. I have a very good friend - or at least, he used to be. One Monday morning not so long ago, he stated to me that based on a recommendation of a friend - a woman friend he was eager to court - he had taken a great self-improvement class over the weekend and how wonderful it was. He didn't offer much detail, but when pressed he did admit that he attended a Landmark Forum. My heart sank. I had seen and heard of the effects of Landmark on others before. Without thinking, I immediately blurted out, "What ever possessed you to do that? Don't you know it's a cult?"
Despite my obvious alarm, he stated that he saw nothing cultish about it. That the information he learned was valuable. That it came highly recommended by a person whom he felt was highly intelligent and trustworthy. That even though Landmark evolved from est, they only took the good parts and got rid of the abusive stuff and that the business itself is reputable. He also stated that they didn't "get" him, which I thought was a very strange thing to say after defending Landmark so staunchly. It was as if, somewhere deep in his subconscious, he knew that it was indeed what Landmark was trying to do. Get him. He went on with a bizarre statement that I can't even paraphrase because, logically, it didn't make any real sense at the time, but it centered on "life is meaningless." By this time it was clear that he was becoming more and more agitated with my challenges to his decision, so I dropped the subject. I almost wish I had kept my mouth shut.
Needless to say, our relationship has become somewhat strained. He has gone on to take the 10-week seminar and the advanced course, and has probably signed up for more. His entire appearance and demeanor has changed. I think I saw it described somewhere else in this forum as "Stepfordized" and that description is completely accurate. Gone is the spontaneous, happy, social being I used to know. In his place is a dour, deliberate, arrogant, unsociable thing. Maybe he's just like that around me because he knows how I feel about his involvement, but I have never seen this amount of change in one person so quickly - so much so that I do worry about his well being. Others have described him recently as "weird" and "being out there."
Since our initial conversation on the subject, I have not brought up the subject at all, partly because I'm afraid to and mostly because he almost shuns me now. He doesn't phone or email anymore, but interestingly enough, once in a while, he shows up out of the blue - always on a Monday or Tuesday - almost his old self. He acts like there's something he wants to talk about but because he can't seem to find the right words he talks about trivial stuff. I usually joke to myself that he really wants to invite me to a meeting, but chickens out because he knows I won't go. Afterwards, I'm non-existent again for a couple of weeks. It's very strange behavior.
Is he too far gone? Is there anything I can do to help him understand what it is that he's involved with? What it is doing to him? I miss my friend and have told him so. It didn’t make a difference.