And I think of him bonding with other people, choosing a bunch of Landmark jargon-spouting drones over me, and I feel such a deep sense of miserable loss, it just cuts right through me.
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the sad part vlinden is that they wont truly "bond"; my friend became completely narcistic, incapable of seeing anything real beyond herself...i don't believe there is any real level of true friendship with these people ...take them away from that scene and they will eventually (hopefully) revert back to their former selves. That is why the lekkies continue with the phone calls and follow ups, to keep people plugged in.
But unfortunately his experience will change you...when he finally comes to his sences you may have moved on...and that is the saddest part...and the part that might keep you trapped in a hopeless relationship. The waiting and hoping that he will finally see the light...one minute you will feel like you can let him go, the next you will want to hold on. It is not an envialble position to be in, and the best thing for you is to keep writing here - and no, you are not pathetic and whiney, you are in genuine distress, and you need emotional support....and this IS the place where you will get it...i first came here when a very very close friend of mine got involved with Landmark. She seems to have moved away from them, but she will still not talk to me about Landmark, although she does tell me that they continue to phone and leave messages and mail stuff to her.
I am still not resting easy that she is done with them.... time will tell i quess. In the meantime, keep writing and sharing here, and know that nothing you say is silly or pathetic.