Isn't weird to forget so many things? Is that part of it do you think? How do you remember so much?
I have read some years ago that forgetting is a natural defense of the mind when you suffer some trauma, i don't remember the details, so yes i think it is part of it, of the brainwashing. It helps them a lot: it protects them and it let them suck the people in more ("if you start to forget the forum go sign up for more courses").
How do i remember so much? I sit down, i copy the syllabus part and then i just try to explain what it says and try to remember what really happened in those three/four hours of the section I'm revisiting. Sometimes memories pop up in mind while I write, sometimes just after, when i re-read my post.
When i saw the france 3 video with the hidden cameras inside the forum it hit me like a truck. Scenes of abuse like that of the woman in the video, that i forgot about, resurfaced suddenly. And they didn't look like 'coaching' the second time.
Then came the nightmares. Most of the forum, it came back at night when i'm half asleep and still half awake (do yo know what i mean?), that's when most of the memories came back. I didn't sleep much those nights.
At the higher levels did any religious ideas creep in?
On quest in the basics there is a lot of talk about 'your beliefs are f*cking up your life' and then a lot of attacks on religious and political beliefs. And they explicitly state that they are not a religious organisation.
They always say it's not a religion and it doesn't have anything religious. Although i saw leaders denying the existence of any god under the heading of 'life is empty and meaningless and everything is made up'. I've heard things like "you can believe in anything that empowers you but life IS empty and meaningless anyway".
Usually in my courses people tended not to talk about religion or faith because we all knew (more or less consciously) that it would be treated like that. Obviously the tone changes if you talk about using parishes and temples and mosques for introductions to the forum, oh boy, yes, "the forum it's the best way to have a breakthrough with your faith".
I've seen a muslim girl complaining that landmark didn't fit perfectly with her religion. Of course she needed a breakthrough in spirituality, therefore she couldn't leave landmark. It's pretty humiliating, to be told with their big white smiles and their lovely manners things like "of course you can believe in Jesus, or Allah or Santa or Peter Pan if it empowers you, but don't forget that life is meaningless and you made it all up". It's sad when people have to put on 'maybe' their faith to be loyal to the landmark thruth, and most people tend to avoid that.
Personally i never ever talked about relationships and religion in landmark because i thought: "these are subjects i won't ever take coaching on and i know they won't like it if i refuse the coaching". I guess we all manage to save some small part of ourself that we don't hand to the lgats. Maybe those that are hopefully lost inside, those who got sucked in beyond the point of no return are those who handed everything to the lekkies.