Curing the landmark hangover
Date: December 04, 2003 08:34PM
about the nightmares. One of them was a loop that kept repeating itself in the dream. In reality, I arrived Sunday of the advanced course with a question about alternative dates (other than the two being offered.) for SELP. I was going skiing and just couldn't do the available dates. I asked one of the assistants, "are there more dates?" He said bluntly, "No." Then went into a diatribe about, "what is stopping you from making transformation an immediate possibility..." At the end of the day I signed up anyway (!) thinking I'll figure it out later. The next day I heard there WERE dates later in the year. I asked the center and was told, "we don't have leaders so those dates arent' confirmed yet." A blatant lie. Nice example of coercive persuasion too. At the time I knew it wasn't right but I buried it and kept going. In the nightmare, that situation had morphed into a never ending Q+A session with that same assistant. Whatever I asked he said NO and started ranting LECspeak. I remember asking things in the dream like, "can I eat? can I sleep?" NO. NO. I can still clearly picture that f***ers face and hear his tone of voice.
Creepy to think about but somehow helpful. I still dream about LEC a lot but not like I did in the summer. No more waking up screaming, sweating. Luckily.
Whaddya make of this?