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nutrino
Sure 'nuff.
If you asked an ESTmarkian [i:e087def7e6] what [/i:e087def7e6] motivated their continued involvment with the organization, we're talking about the serious players, the company boys and girls here, they give you the palatable answer....
Their high ideals, their love of this great project, completions, and so on... which well may be [i:e087def7e6] partially [/i:e087def7e6] true...
What they won't tell you, and what I doubt very much the could bring themselves to say openly even among each other with none of "the children" overhearing, is that they are profoundly motivate by a love of dominance... I think it is safe to say that these are not so much the pure dominant types who rise by virtue of extrordinary ability to a fame that is accorded by wide social consensus, but something a little dimmer, a little cheesier, we might call them [i:e087def7e6] frustrated dominant [/i:e087def7e6] personalities who have deep seated fantasies of dominance and control BUT lack the true juice, potency, [i:e087def7e6] virtu [/i:e087def7e6], or whatever you want to call it, to pull off their domination rackets [i:e087def7e6] to the degree that their inner needs drive them [/i:e087def7e6] in normal, consensus reality circumstances....
Sooooo.... whaddya do ? You create your own reality where you CAN strut around and play the Big Swinging Dick, where you are safe, where the environment is tightly controlled, where every response has been scripted far in advance... and far, far in the back of their minds IS that overcompensation for a feeling of inferiority that drives them on, that gives them that harsh, defensive, self protective edge... because it is a profoundly neurotic need [i:e087def7e6] not to be weak [/i:e087def7e6] that whips them on, and there is nothing they loathe so much as the weakness and dependency within themselves.. or the comtempt they feel for the vulnerability of others, which only reminds them all the more of their own vulnerabilities...
which, naturally, thay have made a career of denying...
Another bull's eye, Nutrino.
Just so much "catnip for the conceited," as some wag pointed out a long time ago.
(Also, a school for bullies and a "home" for the sociopathic.)
Ellen