I don't know if you're asking how I got out of being involved with the group, or got out of being controlled by the mindset. They're two different questions.
Recently I met someone who said she'd been involved with Landmark. I asked how she got out. She just drifted out, seemingly unaware of the true nature of Landmark/LGATs. I started to think: just because someone is out of an LGAT does not mean the LGAT is out of them.
estie, I like your description of your deepening awareness of the LGAT LIE. You describe well the [u:c4db6224b8] s l o w[/u:c4db6224b8] process of coming out of the trance that I experienced.
While I had reservations, questions, confusion and disagreement when I was involved (not Landmuck, another LGAT), I *chose* to ignore them (part of the training). In hindsight, I am thankful for a few very painful events (five years ago) that cracked the trance-illusion. When that crack happened, I revisited my reservations, etc. and thus began a two year+ examination of all the so-called teachings. Had those events not happened, I shudder to think that the LGAT would still be alive in me, unexamined, and unbeknownst to me. I'd still be a candidate for more of it.
In the beginning of my examination, I was STILL INSIDE the LGAT mindset, as I analyzed the mindset!!! But I was on my way out, if only slowly. I clearly saw flaws, *and* I also thought there was wisdom in the so-called teachings. Things were starting to unravel.
I solidly identified the ILLOGIC I'd been taught. THEN, I stumbled upon a person who referred to est as an "abusive cult". From what this person said, est & this other LGAT sounded similar enough that I immediately started searching for information on est & cults.
What I found shocked me. Not only was every single thing I had identified validated, I learned that I had been intentionally and deliberately deceived and exploited. I was, and still am, outraged.