Fundamentalist Orthodoxy--Comments and a Question
Date: December 15, 2004 11:05PM
Dear Ioanan:
There are probably lots of different answers to your question. I am not a mental health professional, so test what I say against your observations. Our friends at pokrov.org may be able to guide you toward additional reading matter.
There is an excellent book entitled [i:7c8d079201]'Prophetic Charisma' [/i:7c8d079201]by Len Oakes in which Oakes described how he interviewed 20 charismatic leaders of different groups and found that underneath the variety of world views, they all had some very important similarities in psychological make up--and even career trajectory.
You can read this and see if you recognize any of these patterns.
One observation made by Oakes was that the 20 leaders were socially sophisticated (in some cases quite manipulative), but psychologically they were not fully adult--they had not learned to be comfortable with their equals, could not be genuinely friends with persons who were fully adult. Instead, these leaders though adult in calendar years, retained many psychological features characteristic of childhood.
They needed to dominate and control social situations and did all they could to master the skills needed to do so.
My hunch is that persons who remain psychologically child-like may have diffculties with sex and feel afraid to have sex with persons who are mature. So they may try to suppress their own sexuality through hiding in certain religious groups and if their lonliness becomes too great, may be apt to reach for someone who feels 'safe'---and that selected person may be a child, someone who matches the true psychological age of the sufferer.
Blessings for your healing. There are relatively few Orthodox churches and monasteries in the United States, and relatively few worship as Orthodox Christians, so it is especially difficult to find people who understand the special features of the spiritual tradition in which you saw all this happen.
A very special feature of Orthodoxy is its beauty. Its especially painful when a hurtful group can use beauty to cloak an entrenched pattern of hurtful behavior.
Thing to remember is in Galatians Paul reminded people that in hearing the Gospel they had become free--and he implored them stay that way and not re-enter bondage.
One clue in evaluating an Orthodox church or monastery is whether its leader and people absorb Orthodox teaching from a wide range of theologians and teachers, or whether they cling, fearfully to just a few select authors, and a narrow interpretation.
Orthodoxy is far, far greater than a single human personality, no matter how holy and talented that personality seems to be.
My personal test in a situation is when listening to someone teach, I ask,
'After the lecture or the service, what lingers in my memory?'
'The teaching itself? Or does the personality of the teacher continually intrude?'
The best choir 'vanishes into' the liturgy--a good choir will not attract attention to itself at expense of the liturgy.