What can I say guys? I did actually get a video camera and I have been planning on making a video of me talking for the site - now it would seem an especially good idea.
If by friend that has been in touch daily you mean someone who is the same age as my father - 20 years older than me who professes to be in love with me at the same time as lobbying for me to give all this cult activism up and move across the world to marry them then yes I have not been in touch with them. I have a friend or ten that I have met who are ex members who in my opinion are in much more potential danger than I who I have not heard from for a few months. Yes I do worry about them, and I try to get in touch with them, but the fact that this guy has gone out of his way to stir up controversy should give some sort of hint as to his mental state. As I am sure that everyone has got the impression I am a romantic to the point of foolishness, not interested in finding a father figure. This person has been very careless about their own connections to the cult which I know very well they do not want to be exposed and I fully respect that as I do with everyone, but their outspokeness and spontaneous bravado has provoked interest that they do not want. If for no other reason him and I could certainly never be together because marrying the anatgonist of SoI would blow his cover. Along with invitations to ashramas and offers of initiation I also get marriage proposals now which is an unexpected consequence of being an aspiring cult activist. The experience has proven to be a story in itself.
I am certainly sorry if I have caused anyone any concern, I have realised in the past few days that I did apparently underestimate the level of interest and concern for my wellbeing when my phone started ringing from people wanting to see that I am ok.
The situation with Ashleigh - and I am sitting with her right now eating cake is that she has two members of her family in the cult, her mother and her brother, which is really all the family that she has. I have been extremely worried since this all started that Ashleigh would be targetted by the cult and tried to insist with her that she distance herself and at the very least feign no involvement. She is as stubborn as I am though and determined that we stick together.
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[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] Cara has made claims that she was allegedly attacked in an attempted rape and that her computer was destroyed. She also claimed that CB follower and former love interest was behind the attacks or claimed to order them.
This is something that I wrote about this a few weeks ago. Besides this I still have threatening text messages from Kruciam Paramahamsa from his registered phone number and a photo of him that I snapped on my mobile phone when there was another incident where he attacked me outside of the place where I was living on 13th April. This was reported to the police via 000 and the number plate of the car that a person that I believe was his son was driving was given to the police. The attempted rape happened on 13th February. Brendon Rice admitted his knowledge of this to me on the 26th April since he had recently tried to resume contact with me at the instigation of Radha Krishna das, the chain of events which is on the chriskcon site under SoI tries to bribe opposition.
In a very depressed state of mind which is not at all helped by the fact that I have severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, which was diagnosed ten years ago and has only been made a lot worse as a result of my expeiences within SoI I attempted to take my own life, got some help and decided that I needed a little space for myself at the moment, not because I am not serious or because I have given up but because I thought that the better health I am able to be in the better job I am able to do, so we have been doing the grunt type of stuff researching etc which while it slows down the site updates is a neccessity. I have also been organising a project which I hope will demonstrate my seriousness when it is presented in the near future.
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If the level of progress can be measured by the level of opposition the effort receives then it would appear that the mission to expose Chris Butler and his cult is doing very well so far.
It is unfortunate that as people who claim to be Vaishnavas following someone who they claim to be certain is a bonafide spiritual master have resorted to tactics of manipulation, intimidation and violence so quickly. The invitation for public debate or at the very least answers to questions that have been posed or substantiated legal reckonings has been ignored in favour of a response which only stands to make SoI more resemble a dangerous and destructive cult.
On 28th of March I was sitting in my room on my bed working on my computer. It was around 10 pm when my door opened and a man stepped inside. As usual I did not have the light on at night because I had been made aware that with my late hours writing the light was a nuisance to other residents. The room, which is only very small, was dimly lit by the laptop monitor.
He would have been late twenties at least, more likely somewhere around his mid thirties, stood around six foot, caucasian appearance with brown skin, short dark hair very short. He was wearing dark blue jeans loose fitting jeans, the kind that gangster types seem to favour in rap music videos, and a dark blue plain T-shirt. I supposse the closest that one can get to wearing all black without actually wearing all black. I had never seen him before in my life.
As I turned to see him come in he said in a calm, even voice "Don't make any noise, I just have a message for you." I noticed that his right hand was in his pocket and he looked to have something there, or at least was doing a passable impression of someone who did. He continued "I'm a friend of Brendon's.."
In the few minutes that all this happened my mind was coming up with all sorts of things. I was wondering if I did make any noise how much this person would be able to hurt me before anyone came, if anyone even did. I had just been outside and not seen anyone around, not even a light on. On a Wednesday the street was always deserted at this time of night. I wondered if he had a knife. It was a relief to hear this name because despite everything I have never been afraid of him or thought that he would hurt me.
"He's a nice guy. He has a son you know."
The way I was sitting, cross legged on the bed with my back to the door I was looking at him over my shoulder. I nodded slightly and this obviously upset him. He made a sharp gesture with his left hand "Don't look at me, look over there." I looked at the computer.
"Don't you know how offensive all this is. You're driving yourself straight into hell. You got a letter telling you to take that website down, take the fucking thing down. No-one believes what you say, no-one cares, no-one will help you. The cops are on our side. If you keep going we are going to come back and shoot you."
He had been pacing slightly as he delievered this. The room didn't allow for much. As it was the door was next to the bed with about a metre between the bed and the wall. Just looking at the keys on the computer I didn't see him move quickly to emphasise his last words by sending a fist flying past my right shoulder straight into the monitor screen. The impact made only a thud and a slight cruch. As a plasma screen it didn't explode or even shatter except internally. It immediately went all white with the point of impact and the cracks emphasised in black.
Just as quickly he flung open the door and I heard the faint sounds of him running off.
All of this became Police Event Number 29721623. I was told that nothing could be done because I could not identify the person, because I could not just hand his name and address over to the police. Even if I could I know from my experience with them that they would have some other excuse like "It's your word against his" or "You need to go and get a restraining order."
The earlier threats against me which had been issued by Kruciam Paramahamsa, eventhough they had come from his own mobile phone and made several clear references to SoI and two individuals in SoI, which were twice reported to the police had not even be recorded. Apparently it is not against the law to threaten or harrass someone, so I have been told, unless I go and get a restraining order against them. One now needs to have a formal licence in order to be protected by the law. I was told by the officer that took my report that it was my own fault for having the website in the first place and that since I had been warned that I should take it down. My reply was that there was no way that was going to happen and he insisted "On behalf of the police force that is the advice that I am giving you."
This was not the end of it, if indeed there will ever be an end to it at all. On 13th April the same person who had previously stalked and threatened me from 12th-14th of February, Kruciam Paramahamsa, resident of Unit 3, 10 Boyd St South Tweed Heads decided that he would try again.
When I walked into the store across the road, without realising that he was sitting inside he said "We're all watching you bitch. How's your computer?" and made a shooting gesture with his hand. I pulled out my mobile phone and snapped a picture which shows the face of the man who gets obviously sexually aroused in public when threatening women. He lunged at me and tried to grab hold of the phone and then said that I attacked him and he wanted the police called. I dialled the emergency number on my phone while he made a hasty retreat with his the obese and leering hippie woman that he had been sitting with who spat at me as she went past. As he passed he lunged at me again and grabbed me on the right breast.
The driver of the car looked very familiar. I will not forget the person that came to my room and told me that they would have to shoot me. I got the licence plate number.
According to the messages that he sent me, which are still in my posession, he is a friend of Nirmal das and has communicated with Nirmal das about me. His statements indicate that he has conspired with this disciple of Chris Butler against me. As I do not know Nirmal das at all and cannot even recall having ever been in the same room as him I have no idea if this is the truth.
The police took about an hour to show up eventhough they were summoned to an emergency. They didn't even get out of the car. I was asked if I had a mark on me and said I probably did have a bruise on my breast but I was not about to take off my shirt in the street to check and it was clear the police were not that interested. There were a couple of witnesses that eventhough they probably would not be bothered to support me should have been spoken to.
Devotee gossip is a pretty reliable source of information and I have made some enquries. What I have been told is that this character, who is at least in his mid fifties, about 5'7", caucasian, drug addict's build (for the sake of reporting that is the most accurate description), with several tattoos, including an OM on his right inside forearm, dirty long light brown hair tied back in a ponytail and a right eye that is made of glass, claims to be associated with just about every guru that there is and is a musician and aspiring recording artist. He had given various accounts of how he lost his eye, one being that he was fleeing a cult in Byron Bay and another that he was attatched with a pitchfork "for absolutely no reason". The grapevine categorically states that he left Byron Bay after being accussed of sexually interfering with young girls.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] Chriskcon / Cultof Butler website is no longer available.
www.cultofbutler.com is up and active. The traffic flow is consistent and actually increasing as the site continues to exist which has only just passed the two month mark today.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] Ashleigh Rice, alleged sister of Cara’s love interest and “bestest” friend of Cara was never named in the letter from SOI lawyer (copy scanned on Chriskcon website), in spite of fact she supposedly made extensive contributions to the website. Cara posts on RR that Ashleigh betrayed her and then on the Chriskcon forum she claims they talk every day and are still best friends and was only trying to protect her.
It is a fact that Ash was not mentioned in the lawyers letter, and we do not know why this is the case. We speculate that her mother may have something to do with this. Also the domain name was registered in my name which indicates ownership from a legal point of view and we have always maintained a place that no-one knows the address of just as a precaution not being sure when we started out this cult activism thing what the result may be.
Ash does all the html which I assure you that I am completely incapable of and without her the site would not exist and she is an excellent researcher. We do not want to put out photos of Ash just to prove that she exists. There has been one photo of me that most people have seen on my last blog and there will as I mentioned be a video. Maybe it was not the best way to try to protect her but with things the way that they were at the time it seemed like something I could do.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] A person named Caris is posting on a Skeptic website, one of Ashleigh’s interests.
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A poster on this forum called Mathew Scott Fitsgarrett offers up some good advice to 'caris' on this forum.
That is me and skepticism is also one of my interests. His advice to take a break was sort of heeded. His advice to give up cult activism was not. If anyone is going there to read this then I think that I expressed rather well in my last post how I feel about the situation and why I want to do what I want to do.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] Cara or someone(s) calling herself Cara started several blogs and websites, all of which disappeared by design or otherwise. She has claimed responsibility for Chriskcon, then she claimed that she does not run the site or implied there were others helping her, then she claims other people took over control, and then claims to dismiss herself from the endeavor.
I stated that I do not moderate the Chriskcon forum, which I don't, I had neither the time or the computer access after my laptop was wrecked to do it anyway. I wrote pretty much every word on that site. I am not going to discuss who helps me because of maintaining their privacy and it has been made clear to me that SoI is very interested in finding out who these people are. I also stated that the name was assumed control of, not the site. As I recently posted to you the site itself has never been down - a domain name is totally separate to a website administered through a different company and easy to assume control of. If the site had gone down the domain name would have been pointing at nothing, not CNN. Stealing domain names is a common hack and attempt at site sabotage.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] Cara has claimed all along that she is a “devotee” and a follower of Krishna or Nrishimhadev and claims to have had a vision of the lion incarnation and on a divinely inspired mission to expose SOI. Other places she has entertained the idea of starting her own “mission”.
What has this got to do with anything? I have been open about spiritual things, I have tried to be an open person and I have also said that I do not know what the truth really is about the situation and criticised a lot of things. If I started a "mission" it would be along the lines of below, more of a charity and I would hardly be the first person to start a religious inspired charity. There are two sides behind my supporters, those who want to abandon all organised religion and speak out against the dangers and shortcomings of it and those who maintain their faith despite their experiences and continue or want to continue having a spiritual life. I have been apprached repeatedly and asked to do something so that exposing SoI does not turn people away from Krishna Consciousness and I have certainly considered the idea that there may be something that can be done so that no one need feel that they were turned away from spiritual life by SoI, which is certainly how I feel. You also claimed to me to have seen Narasingha Zelig so I do not really appreciate the implications of the above "fact" I believe in metaphysics and mysticism in as much as I do not disbelieve in them, I have an enquiring mind, that is no secret, and theology has been a long time interest of mine. I want to help people not ever make a guru of myself and I have never ever entertained that idea, despite the fact that it has been sugguested and been made clear to me that I would get a lot more support from the Vaishnava community if I did.
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Attahasa Mission is founded to serve Krishna through addressing issues of spiritual abuse, facilitating awareness, healing and prevention.
With the focus of Attahasa being devotional service there is no guru or one who claims to be a spiritual authority affiliated with the mission.
Attahasa endorses Scripture and the Lord in the Heart as the failsafe guides in spiritual life and will act to support all people to develop their own personal relationship with Krishna.
Individuals and organizations supportive of the principles and projects of Attahasa Mission will be made welcome to contribute.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] Cara refused to share information on the RR site that has disappeared on the Chriskcon site and advertised her website (a pro-krishna consciousness website) in most every post on the RR forum.
What information did I refuse to share? I post a lot here and I have an active website.
[b:948710c59f]Fact:[/b:948710c59f] I just saw the video “Sybil”.
Well perhaps that explains your last post but does not excuse it.