Re: Indigo and Crystal Children
Date: April 18, 2013 02:03PM
i've been involved with an online forum about indigo children, it has fucked up my mind and the mind of dizains of decent folks in pretty way lol
the thing is i do think there is something more than barnum statement about what indigo children refer to, because of the close tight that related us all on this board, it was really weird, at first how we all clinged together on this board, i joined it like 5 year ago, been on it for 3 year or something, and i still see lot of the people, i even met my girl friend on this board lol it's to say there was some kind of very close link that has formed there between the people, even if now we have been completly cut of from the place for a while , and many of us even spent copious amount of time trolling them to death once we have been banned for 'disruptive behavior' , i'm still in contact with lot of the folk i've met there, even if we all agree the place is rather abusive in a weird way
when i joined it, i knew nothing about cult, most my friend told me it was actrually a cult, but i didn't mind it, i said to them it was not a cult, at first when i joined there was no moderator, and it seemed pretty free minded, and i was actually at a sort of turning point in my life, i had just cut off ties with many friends i had before, shut off the company, and was off of a very stressing and twisted period of my life, and alone in a new place starting back my life from scratch, and i was rather distressed about many thing, it's been 5 year ago, i'm just now i think completly recovering from this part of my life
originally i'm more a rational type of person, never been into anything spirtual at all before i joined this board, a guy that i have met a coding channel started to speak about secret society and esoteric stuff, and at that time i was a bit diging into conspiracy, and wanted to open my mind to esotery, metaphysic, shamanism and all that sort of thing, and he pointed me to indigosociety, and at first i found it amazing, cause there all kind of speech about all the topics that interested me, i actually have synthesia, so the whole thing of aura color instantly left me breathless, and there was lot of speech about conspiracies, aura, empathy, and i felt a very deep connection with most of the people there, a whole lot of vocabulary installed itself very quickly, and i felt it was a very nice place at first
but it quickly went downhill, i still cannot explain everything that happened here, even if i made my best since we left the place and bieng banned, and after i've seen the huge attachement people developped to that place, and how they mannaged to install a feeling of authority over us, and the huge emotional disturbance that resulted from dizains of people that i've seen been banned from this board, and the whole lot of abuse and crap i've seen around it, i still live me a very bitter taste to have been abused so easily into that shit
those people are very good to establish a sort of trust link, and on the contrary to other form of cult, they didn't even need to install a strong kind of authority, because most people on that place yeah are rather coming from place of abuse and related to each other, and the trust link that establish on those place is so precious for that kind of person, that there is a kind of instant respect of the authority that happen for fear to be cut from the friends of the boards, it's also why the first comment of this thread about indigo children being spoiled brat make me laught , because lot of people of that place come from famillial abuse, and pretty much whole kind of twisted shit, and are rather lonely, but actually i think the archetype associated with the spoied brat archetype as lacking proper education and limits can apply also perfectly to people who lack of education because of famillial abuse, authority by spanking can work to a degree, but when unfair punishement are applied it has the oppoiste effect as well to make people completly disregarding of authority, and defiant to it , the whole vocabulary of empathy and such can actually apply to people who has been victim of abuse or living in unstable environement because they develop skill to anticipate people potential violent reaction
but well at first it was like dream and i was going along with everyone, but in fact there was so much hypocrisy and disgusting thing going on behing the curtain, and it was all carefull taboo and hidden from the board, the board was made of different kind of people, some part i want to believe were genuine and decent folk bit like me, seeking for like minded people, but whole part of other were mixed into weird thing, lot of moderator were part of secret society, like eastern star, templar, free masons, and other weird cult, one girl i have been close to has been taken up into a very bad cult, in crestone, it was GFL derivative, they were mostly yougnster feling their abusive family more or less, and who gathered around 2 alchoolic guru, who made some twin flamme, and wanted to screw their ego, with food deprivation, humilation of whole kind, and this stuff was never spoke of on the board, i have spoted so much cynisme and hypocrisy from the people who were moderators or leader of the board that i really want to make me puke, how indeed lot of people come from place of abuse and get completly mocked and disrepcted by power hunry cultic moderators, this mentality has pissed me off so much i'm still mad at it pfff lol
but at first it was ok, but at some poiint, as the forum grew up and gained momentum, they started to install a whole bunch of rules and moderators, and i swear all people were so close to each other with a sort of unique connection, probably due to some similar past of abuse or something, and child abuse can make one feel very special locked up in a shell, and it's like on this board a trust link established almost instantly , for people often in period of their life when they really needed someone to trust, and the moderator totally screwed up, they started to go on completly batshit kind of belief, and removed any kind of post that would contradict them, and went completly in a sort of ego manic trip of power on the board, censored many thing, actually during the period i was there, no less than 5 alternate boad made of member of this board has been created mostly to discuss moderation issue and keeping contact between each other because of all the incredible amount of bullshit pushed by the moderation team, and it was almost like a nazi organisation where moderator suddently started to act like robot follow stupid rules to a T like dumb robot spilling their mad numbo jumbo, instead of being focused on actual healing and mutual support, and mostly disregarding all the real people who had real issue and who needed real help trying to push their useless mumbo jumbo crap about super psychic and bullcrap over the place, and anyone who questionned them got warning and got banned, which all the time trigger very powerfull emtional reaction for real, i've seen dizaing of people really being fearfull to death of being banned to loose this magic connection they had with each other, and they installed a real weird gestapo like system, labelling people as 'troll' whereas they were mostly just questionning the belief or poeple and the moderation practice, and systematicallt deleting anykind of controversal thread, or questionning, now it's virtually impossible to post anything that contradict their mumbo jumbo without getting all post deleted and acount banned in the hour, i still know many of the people who are still wondering of what happened there, and are still baffled at the amount of crap that has happened since the moderation started to take place, wherease before it was a very nice welcoming mutal support place, now most of the people who has been there really hate the place , and went t o really very sharp fast of almost fanatical enthusiast, to then dreadfull hatred from the place as it turned, it's really weird
i finally left the place when a close friend of mine that was there, who was also going through a very rough phase, basically being betrayed by his buisness partner, he lost his job, his home, and when homeless for a few week, and has been deemed a 'troll' because he was a bit making fun of all the dumb guru wannabee who were moderating the place with mumno jumbo crap, most of the people who were like me actually rebelled a bit, and all have been systematicall evicted, and all their post deleted, it has been percieved by dizains of poeple as a complete betreyal, i still didn't get why it went this way, if it was all planned as a big scam, or if they improvised it on the fly, but it suxed badly, and so this guy was going through this rough phase, being very distressed, and borderline suicidal, and was bit upset at the people there, and then a guy came in said he just strangled his dog to death by accident, and while everyone was into suggar coating him in uncontional love and forgiving, this guy call him for what he is, and he got banned for that, whereas he really needed this place to get connection with other friendly people, and this has made him really made, as many other people have been made into very weird long lasting emotional disturbance after seing the rampant hypcrisy running wild on that place, whereas they were seeking for a trust link and seing how corrupted and cynical and scammy and uncaring most of the people were there, completly ignorant about abuse and real help while they all pretend to be lightworker spiritual healer, and just banning people who need help because they contradict their mumbo jumbo shit that doesn't help a shit, and don't follow the line of conduct imposed by the moderation team , it has been really incredibly traumatising for lot of people, i can't even really still today explain the whole mecanism, it still leave be me baffled at it, i can't explain neither why we all felt so attached to the place and to each other instantly on that place, and why we all have been so upset about how it went with the moderation
but i still think there is something about the indigo label, the connection between us is too deep to be denied and dimsessed as plain barnum statement, the ahdh i believe is not really clinical ahdh, but more some kind of anxiety, or recurrent mental issue like automatic t hough that prevent people to focus to due past of living in unstable or dangerous environement, rather than regular ahdh, but even if the label is real, and that there is strong feeling of connection that i believe is real, i wouldn't advise to approach any kind of new age indigo community with a ten foot pole, or being extremly carefull about all the people who are bit figure of authority in the group, because just as much as i think there is something very deep that i can't totally explain about the label that attract like minded people like a magnet, just as much the guru and leader are very cynical about it, and use this powerfull emotional contact between the member to impose their authority very easily on the group, that at first seem like a little inconveniant compared to the quality of conneciton with member, but who quickly become invading and orienting the whole lot of discussion and program, and can quickly get very messy to one's brain, and will clearly not help a shit with whatever it is that indigo children are going through that make them resonate with the label, because i think the label has much of negative thing in it, i don't think it's just as simple as ahdh or spoiled brat syndrome, but something much deeper and more complicated to explain, 5 year after, i'm still trying to define exactly what drawed us together on that place and what make that most the people i talk to still today come from that place, and why i never felt such a deep connection and instant trust with anyone else outside of that board, and i'm someolne who is very carefull and who has been surrounded by my load of very weird people in my life, i'm still amazed how i could be pulled out to swallow all that crap and how all those people had mannage to imposed themselve as a trusted to me so easily where they are just worthless hypocritical piece of crap who just want to make a buck by exploited emotionally disturbed people with some mumbo jumbo presented as authority that nobody a priori give a crap about, but that is made to be respected because of the threat of being banned and cut from the group it's so sick shit lol
actually we were so sick that we all made unmoderated forum alternative to it, there was at least 5 of them along the time to say how corrupted and crappy the moderation was, and how they systematicall censor and erase any post that expose their bullshit and dirty side, it's so enraging to see all those people being brainwahsed by those vampires into crap, of whom many actrually ended into institution in very bad mental state after all this weird environement, of resignation of the mumbo jumbo spilling moderator that need to be repsected and the good connection with other members, and the whole mess it created, and some people on there are also really ill intentioned and paraiste the whole thing, and moderator are completly blind to it, they just want traffic and actually take pleasure to see sensitive people being abused and mind fucked, and even in private mock them and tell them to kill themselve and that they don't give a shit, and if you post any of it on the board, all the post get deleted in the hour and account get banned, it's really sick shit lol
don't go on indigosociety, i hope this post make it to google for all the people who still believe in indigosociety.com ( <= google bot this :D) know how crappy and uncaring all the moderator are on there for those who didn't realise yet :D